So I guess i should have expected this, Ive led a substantially less than perfect life. I makes sense that the straight and narrow would be more wonky and wide. To put you in the picture six months ago I met a man, he was nice, kind and everything you could hope for in a partner. He made real effort with my friends and we went out and explored together. This was the kind of relationship I had been dreaming of. Continue reading
Over the last few weeks I have been looking back at the last 12 months as everybody does this time of year. While most will want to lose weight, be more disciplined, travel the world and the like, I have been thinking about my termination. I can’t help but thinking that maybe i didn’t make the right choice.
I’ll be honest with you all, for the past several months I have been completely alone. Now I know some people will say your single its nothing to get upset about. And they are probably right but I can’t shift the feeling that i am not good enough. I never make it past the first few dates either by their decision or mine. You’ll start talking to someone, begin to develop feelings and then get dropped like you’re nothing. Continue reading
Im going to visit the boy from Ireland, I don’t know if I’ve told you about him. i think i have. Remember that went it comes to sensible ideas, i don’t have them… end of story. Im going next thursday, and I’m looking forward to it… or am i?
I hate being a ranty type of person but i guess its the best way that I can be real. These are my thoughts as I experience them, these are my feelings as i feel them. I may not be the most eloquent of writers but at least I am honest about my feelings, well as honest as I can be without giving too much away.
There is a moment when being the other woman, the mistress, the bit on the side or whatever you want to call, is truly heartbreaking. That is the moment you get a phonecall from the wife… Continue reading
Its official everyone dating these days royally sucks. The amount of apps kicking about means everyone always thinks they can do better, or find someone who’ll do for the night. Its shit, you are constantly judged on the way you look, every decision you have made in your life is under the microscope. Where you live, what you do, how you spend your spend time and what you want from the future.
Given everything I’ve been through recently you would think that going on a date would be the last thing on my mind but in all honesty it was a much needed distraction. I met him on-line…. please don’t judge. He was older than me, Irish and works in the forces. It’s hard to put into words the nerves I felt…. I just wish it had gone as well as I had hoped. God this dating thing is hard haha Continue reading
For those of you who already know about a month ago I found out I was pregnant, the father was less than desirable to say the least, and I was faced with the worst decision a woman could make. To carry on with the pregnancy and be a single parent or terminate the pregnancy and try to rebuild my life. Continue reading
So I thought I was just putting my mind at rest when i took a pregnancy test two weeks ago. Yeah my mind was not put at rest, within 30 seconds it came up positive…. oh my god what do I do!!!! Continue reading